So, here it is... documentation of my baby belly at 36 weeks! I am now 37 weeks and have surpassed the date of when I had Calvin. So I'm on the homestretch now! I had an appt. this past Thursday and all is well. I am dilated two centimeters and the doc said that my cervix has moved forward. The baby is also head down and in position to be born! Woo-hoo! I have my last appt. this coming Thursday and that will be my "pre-op" appt. making sure everything is good to go for my Cesarian on June 10th! I have honestly been giving it my best effort to relax and take it easy (something that is hard for me to do) and I think that has probably helped.
I was so sick a couple of weeks ago. I had a terrible cold, sore throat and cough. Also, at the same time my seasonal allergies started. That was a rough 5 days. My cough is still lingering, but I finally feel much better. In this photo you can tell that my eyes are all red and were very itchy! I hate hay fever! Just as a reminder to myself, maybe try not to be 8 months pregnant during allergy season.
I feel ready now. Bring it on baby Jack! A few weeks ago when I was having some contractions I might have been freaking out a little. I was trying to have all the laundry done, and bags packed and baby stuff ready and house in order so that if he came and we had visitors it would be clean. I'm in a much more relaxed mood now. I don't think everything will be perfect, but I do want to keep it picked up at least. A goal that is increasingly difficult with a rambunctious toddler around and a Mommy who can't bend over to pick things up.
I've been trying to think of what I want to remember from this time. It seemed like last time I had forgotten the way things were or felt while I was pregnant. I want to record those feelings accurately so that I will be able to recall when I am past my childbearing years. Lately, I really do feel like I am running out of room in my belly. I'll feel really strong kicks that shake my body or knees or feet sticking out of my sides and rolling across my belly. It is a very strange feeling. Sometimes I gasp because it feels so weird all of a sudden, like he's going to kick his way out! I've been eating a lot of junk food lately-probably not the best idea, but I am craving things like little debbie nutty bars and chips! I never eat those things. My guess is that Jack is putting on a lot of weight these last few weeks and so that is why I am craving fatty things. :) I'm trying to be good!
My hips have been really sore and achy lately, they feel like they are probably shifting apart ever so slightly, that is a weird feeling. My emotions have been relatively stable compared to a month ago. I am mostly just tired and can become irritable if I don't get my rest.
Tonight I laid on the bed with Calvin and he let me sing to him. It's not too often anymore that he will even let me read him a book before bed, let alone sing him a lullaby. I love those moments. He cuddles up next to me, sucking his thumb and rubbing a corner of his blankie on his face and I rub his tummy while I sing. He's even starting to pick up the songs himself, singing the end of each line....one of my favorites to sing to him is "How he loves us" by John Mark McMillan. Those moments are what heaven must be like, to feel a love so strong and tender. I am so thankful that God has given me this opportunity to be a mother.