Saturday, June 19, 2010

15 Months

Our summer so far has been delightful. I can't tell you how much I love being home with my baby...and my babe. This break from working was much needed. I can actually go grocery shopping or get things done like catch up on bills and filing.

But most importantly I get to be with Calvin. He is so cute at this age. I think besides 9-10 months, this is my favorite. He is walking and talking more. He's learning how to make animal noises and communicating better. He can do the "piggy face", moo for cow, meow for kitty cat, baa for sheep and panting for dog. All of them on command, more or less.

Just in the last couple weeks he's been perfecting his pointing. For awhile he would use his whole hand and point in the direction of something, but now he is using his pointer finger. He says, "diss" I think it means "this" while pointing. He can also say "chsss" for "cheese", "jissss" for "juice", "hi-ee" for "hi", and is really good at using mama and dada in appropriate ways now. It melts my heart when I pick him up and he wraps his little arms around my neck and says "Ma-Ma". Then I bounce him for a few minutes and say "Nite-nite" and he always says it back. It is so precious. He even uses the same inflection. Up and down.

Those are the moments I never want to forget. God has blessed us with such a beautiful baby boy. Sometimes I can't even believe he's mine. We are rich beyond measure.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Last Day of School.

Well, it is finally here. As I sit here typing, I am looking out on my five wonderful students, sitting in their little classroom library absorbed in their reading materials. Ok, maybe it's not quite so picturesque. Corbin is rudely accusing Taylor of stealing his puzzle pieces and Taylor is up walking around, ignoring my specific directions to sit down and READ, PLEASE(for the love). Bryan keeps popping his head up from behind the computer, saying "Ms. Katie" over and over again for no apparent reason. Ah, I love special ed kids...and I am reminded how much I am going to LOVE summer.

In the mix of feeling relieved and exhausted from a long, hard journey of a year, there are traces of sadness. This year is particularly hard to say goodbye. Because, well, I might not return. At least not as "Ms. Katie the para in room 153". I will most likely assume the title of "that sub" when I come back around these parts. This is hard for a number of reasons.

Because our classrooms are smaller we are a very tight knit group. We are a family. We fight together (quite often), play hard and work hard together. I am there when they experience breakthroughs in their emotional maturation. It is so rewarding to see their faces light up when they realize they are not bound by their family circumstances, the turmoil they have experienced. They experience freedom here at Lighthouse Education Center. They learn to handle their emotions in appropriate ways. They have come SO FAR. And I am SO PROUD of them. I could cry....ok can't think about it too much.

This is my ministry. This is where I belong. God has brought me here, these 3 years for a reason. I don't know what the future has in store, and if I can stay away for sure from this crazy place that I love so much. But it is in his hands.