Thursday, May 27, 2010

My Summer Project

This is yet another blog I've started called THE VINE. I'm addicted to blogs- Hah! I've been wanting to travel around the area and check out places I've never been, so this blog is going to become a commentary on my experiences with Calvin this summer. I am keeping in mind an audience who might not know the area. Hope you like it! I'd appreciate any advice any of you have for it too, your favorite places to eat and visit.

Hope you enjoy!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

To cut or not to cut: THE MULLET.

Yes, it's true. Calvin has been sporting one of the finest baby mullets I've seen to date. I've been hanging on so long... I don't want to cut his unadulterated baby hair. No, not his sweet, precious, never been touched baby hair! On some, more humid days the ends will actually curl up. I've been waiting for the little ringlets to appear. I thought if it just grows a little bit longer....then it will curl up into the sweetest little curls you ever saw. Now I don't know if that will become a reality.

If you ask me I think he's just ahead of his time. The Euro-mullet is in right?

We'll see.....might have to "bite the bullet and cut the mullet" as they say.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Walking. It's official.

Calvin is now 14 months and is walking quite well. I am actually quite relieved that he is walking. I think my anxiety level has gone down. He is much steadier and nimble in his motions and doesn't pull up on things as much, which can be scary.Now he just waddles around the house chasing Cooper and giggling.

He is getting sooooo ridiculously cute too. I find myself wanting to stay home with him more and more. I feel like I am missing out while I'm at work. Which brings me to my next point. I will be quitting my job here in the near future to take on a venture brand new to me. The role of being a stay at home mom.The name just sounds so restricting doesn't it? Who wants to just stay at home all the time? Does that mean I don't get to leave? If anyone knows me, they know that I thrive on adventure and discovering new things. My cabin fever is so bad I can't even stay home the length of a full day, without going stir crazy.

My mother has always been (at least as long as I can remember) a career woman. A driven, goal oriented, workplace diva. That is kind of what I pictured myself to be. This staying home business and letting my man bring home the bacon is hard to accept. I never thought I would say that, but I am discovering new things about myself all the time, now that I am a mother.

I don't know how to be a stay at home mom and keep myself sane. I don't know how to support my man. I don't know why I struggle to accept this new role.Am I so prideful that not earning income is considered somewhat shameful? What is wrong with this picture? These are my children we're talking about. I need to be there for them.I never understood this until now.

I will most likely still substitute teach a couple days or find odd jobs, so Calvin will still get some time in with the Grammas. But it is increasingly important to me that I am there to teach him new things, take him on trips to zoos, apple orchards and libraries. I want to be there to watch him light up when he sees something for the first time and learns how to say his ABC's. I guess I just want to be there. More.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

"Screamy Phase"

I've been noticing lately that Cal is trying to communicate more with us, but finds it difficult to do so, since he doesn't really talk yet, minor detail. As a result of this we have entered the "screamy" phase. When we tell him not to go into a certain room or take a certain object away he will scream. I guess that really is the best communication method he could use-come to think of it. I wish I could just scream when things weren't going my way and people were making me mad. Maybe we should all start using this method. It would definitely get the point across and even spare a few hurtful words that would have otherwise come spewing out.

Nonetheless, we must find another way. Even if just for my poor eardrums. It's funny, no one wants to think they're child is bratty. I can remember being like "my child will never scream". But then it happens and you start to realize that it's just a natural part of a child's development. If they weren't so frustrated when trying to communicate then maybe they would never have the drive to learn how to use words. And so, screaming is a part of our lives now. I wonder for how much longer though...?

I've noticed that he associates all the words he knows with some kind of physical sign. We've taught him "all done" and he twists his little hands; "more" and he touches his fingers together;

"piggy" and he wrinkles his nose and snorts, "Ba-ba" aka bottle and he smacks his lips together. So now I guess we should teach him more. I know that he is capable now. I'm excited to see what other signs/words he can learn now.