Monday, May 18, 2009
So.......Dan and I decided it would be a good idea to take Calvin, pack up our van and head south three hours to our college hometown Anderson, IN for his brother's graduation. Hmmm.....not too sure what sounded like a good idea about that. Calvin was barely seven weeks and I thought we were adjusted to life with baby by now, boy was I wrong! I have never taken a trip so taxing on my body and sanity. Between changing him on the front seat in parking lots while raining.....to feeding him- jammed amongst the bags in the back seat. And staying at different people's homes trying to cram in our social agenda while there. All the while Calvin was extremely fussy and made it a job just to have a conversation with friends. It was quite hysterical looking back on it now. It gives the term "family vacation" a whole new meaning to me.
But we did get to see some of my dearest friends. Rachel who just had her son who is only two weeks behind Calvin and Melody who will be having identical twin girls this summer (yes, we have already arranged their marriages with AJ and Calvin). My good friends and college housemates Amy and Shanna (and Amy's sweet sister Mary who is also pregnant!)were there as well and it was sooo nice to see them even if we didn't get to talk much. It was good to give them hugs and see their smiling faces AND introduce them to Cal.
Nick and his wife Mary (Dan's brother) graduated that Sat. from AU and we had some good times with them and family and wishing them off on their adventure to Montana. They will be missed and it was hard to say goodbye but we are so excited for the path God has laid before them.
It was a great trip! Even though we swore we wouldn't do it again for awhile...all the trials were kind of adventurous and it will be a story we can tell Calvin when he gets older. " I remember when you were just a little newborn and we carted you all the way down to Anderson and everywhere else, living out of the back of a minivan."
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Calvin is now 6 weeks old and he is really changing. I noticed it today especially. I took off his clothes and he is actually really chubby. I love him too. Not that I didn't before, but I just feel so close to him, so much in love with his little self. I just want to kiss his little rolls and it pains me to the core when he cries or seems to be in pain or discomfort. I get really defensive while driving or tell others who are driving (....Dan.....) to watch out for every car that might be sneaking out in front of us. I am feeling that motherly instinct I suppose. The natural tendency to protect my offspring ;) I am wondering why I didn't start having children sooner! I love this whole motherhood thing. I am SO grateful to God that I have a wonderful husband to help me through the hard times. We make a great team. I hear good husbands can be hard to come by these days.
I think I felt it the other day. Some of you may know what I mean. I felt "family". I felt that good and right feeling.....sitting there just watching it all play out in front of me. Me holding my sweet baby boy, his soft skin against my cheek and my husband playing tug of war with the dog and us laughing. It is such a wonderful feeling. I feel so privileged to be let in on this new family feeling. It's different than any other feeling in my life. It's what God intended- I just know it. It's us........