Tuesday, September 29, 2009

6 Month Doc Appt.

Calvin saw Dr. Shah yesterday for his 6 month check-up. He is 28 in. long and weighs 19lbs. 3 oz. He is in the 95th percentile for his height and the 75th for his weight! He continues to be one big baby boy! He barely fits into 9 months clothing now!

He had to get his vaccines this visit too. I don't know if anyone else is aware of the debate going on about whether or not there is a link to childhood vaccines and autism but I have been reading a lot about the debate. On one hand, there really is little scientific evidence that says that the vaccines cause autism. On the other hand, parents continue to swear by it, and some doctors say that there is a concern possibly in the amount of vaccines that the infants receive at one time. In many cases, the docs say that the possibility of the child contracting the diseases is greater than the onset of autism.

It still concerns me though, especially with cases of autism in Dan's family. I also work with children with autism and sometimes I'll admit it scares me to think that they really don't know a lot about it or what causes it, yet we continue to see more and more cases. Our schools are busting at the seams with kids with autism. It's pretty crazy. So Dan and I had a discussion about it and decided to spread out Calvin's vaccines. So he didn't get them all at once.

He still has to get the chickenpox and the MMR when he is 12 months old. Those are actually the two vaccines that are in question. We'll see when we come to that bridge, if we cross it, but for now we'll take the advice of a lot of parents and some doctors about spreading them out. That way his immune system doesn't go into overload with the some 7 or 8 vaccines in one visit.

Monday, September 28, 2009


Well I have to say I am thankful that so many people are concerned for me. I guess I am a bit taken aback even at myself, that I came out and said it so honestly. It's hard to be honest when I struggle, especially because I am such a control freak and admitting I need help is always hard for me in any situation. I want people to know that I am ok though. I will be fine and conquer this too. With help from loving people and a loving God.

Thank you for your concern. It feels good to know that people care.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

The Dark Side...

Well I never thought I would say this, but I think I might be struggling with some PPD, aka post-pardum depression. I don't know why but I feel like a failure for even saying that. My emotions have been ALL over the place the last few months. Dan can attest to that, Ha! I love being a mother, but for some reason I have this gloominess hanging over me like a perpetual rainy day. Who ever thought it could be this hard to feel happy? It makes me even more sad to think that I am spending these precious months when Calvin is so little and will never be this little again, feeling this way instead of just enjoying our time together. Phew. So much has happened to me physically and emotionally the last 6 months, plus 9 months of pregnanc- it's exhausting to think back on it. And yet, it is also the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me. Is that possible?

I'm hoping with time that I can shake these feelings and become a bit more stable in the coming months. There is a hope my friends!

Monday, September 21, 2009

6 MOnThs!

Calvin is now 6 months old. We've hit some major milestones lately...First of all about 2 weeks ago Calvin started saying "da-da". Dan had gone on a fishing trip with Brandon, Skye and Jeff for the whole weekend. I know it's hard to believe but I think that he actually missed his Daddy, because he started saying "da-da" by the second day he was gone and hasn't stopped since. My mom and I first started noticing it in the Chick-fil-a drive thru. "Did you just hear what he said?" said my mom. "It sounds like he's saying Dada." and sure enough it got louder and clearer as he repeated "da-da" with a great emphasis on the Da's-just like we say to him.

Also, he has tasted apples and carrots now, and is eating oatmeal regularly. I thought it would be harder for him trying new foods, but so far no problem for this guy. He loves carrots! And the apples- he ate all of them, although he had a very contemplative look on his face the whole time. I can see two little white dots on his gums, he's been crying a lot in the night and has been feverish. I think they should come through in the next week or so-that's my prediction.

I've gone back to work too. The first week was actually kind of nice. I only worked three days and it felt good to get up first thing in the morning, get a cup of coffee and a nice toasted bagel and get showered and dressed before 8am all while my sweet baby was asleep. But week three is now in full swing and all I can say is that I am very very tired. Hopefully I will get used to it soon. The paychecks coming in are nice, but I do miss my Calvie! I am a constant student of sacrifice.